One of the greatest things though is at least having a best friend to experience it with, is having - almost all - our lows, thankfully, on opposite days (because there is just not enough popcorn in the world to handle us on those days). Today, was one of those. A high in the other ones low.
For Jordyn, its trying to find purpose (& handle the restlessness) of being unemployed and for Megan it was the struggle of getting out of bed and pulling away from the temptation for an all day Gilmore Girls marathon (we finally found our TV soul sisters who love coffee & sarcasm as much as we do). Eventually we got dressed, and headed for a walk by the water – motivated far more by the promised stop for takeaway coffee and the bit of sunshine breaking up these stormy days than it was for the actual workout. With coffees in hand, and the topic of conversation for quite some time, the walk turned into a verbal processing of all that has been going on, learning and wrestling through books recently read and She Reads Truth devotions that all so uncoincidentally have been pointing to the same topic, and rounding out the walk with prayer by the water. A rainless walk (a big deal for us out here) that washed away many of the doubts, worries, & concerns growing as rapidly as the bank accounts are diminishing.
It is so easily a looming, discouraging, & seemingly endless process. Countless resumes have been sent out and the lingering hope for a flood of responses each time the email inbox or voicemail is refreshed has yet to deliver. It’s left us both feeling lost in our purpose, questioning what that even looks like right now.
John 6 describes Jesus as the Bread of Life, saying He supplies everything we need. He should be what we crave, what we hunger for. It seems as though we try and make Jesus the center of our life, letting Him supply and give us everything we need, but when it comes down to it we’re both living as though its not enough. We live needing Jesus and something else. Like, Jesus and coffee, or Jesus and friends, or Jesus and a good paying job. Jesus plus something, thats how our lives look.
When the bottom line is all we need is Jesus, Jesus plus nothing.
We can only pour out so much, and live our lives for Christ as much as we spend time with Him (& imagine what that would look like if time spent worrying and stressing over the job hunt was spent in time with Him instead). John 6:35 says:
“Then Jesus declared, ‘I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.'”
Being here in Ireland has been affirmed, doors have swung open for us to be here & this place is daily feeling more and more like home. But even though the doors opened, it never meant this was going to be easy. There are days when bank accounts seem to be draining at an unbelievable pace, & days when friends are few and far between, but such is life. And that is what this season is. It’s already looking so different than either of us ever experienced.
But despite the changes and the learning to be brave and bold in stepping out of our comfort zones and entering into (the often awkward) experience of trying to make friends and build a new life,circumstances should not control the quality in which The Lord is to be praised. & for now we wait. Whether that email or call comes tomorrow or in a week, this time isn’t a waste and truthfully, this time may never come again. So until we each find out what our job descriptions will be, He will be praised because I am convinced that His word is true & can be trusted. We’ll type our fingers raw from resumes and cover letters, ready and willing to go where He leads, & until that door opens, we’ll continue to learn to embrace (as Jordyn’s sister fabulously pointed out) the life of the funemployed.